CHAR. wanderlust dreamer

CHARLENE
Wanderlust dreamer/ nus fass/ twenty/ loves food / loves a good read / living for 280108 / laughter / fun / friends /

Wants
Touchscreen phone/ Taiwan trip/ Master French/ 21st surprise birthday party/ Graduate with Honours/ Be a journalist/ To travel round the world

Charlene Shannon

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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

These few days have been ups and downs for me. Sometimes i just feel so useless whenever im at school, like i can't do anything to push myself for better grades, sometimes i think that as long as i did my best, nothing else matters. I don't know, i just feel like i'm just not cut out for studies, cos everyone around me is so smart it doesnt matter how hard i try, cos it will never be good enough. i promised my bf that as long as i get my degree, doing honours will be a bonus.but i just feel like if i dont do honours, it will be wasted.anyway, i just have to work doubly hard because the modules that i pick doesnt seem to be helping me do so. i dont like it when people/friends tell me that i'm smart and that i'm too hardworking. but that isnt any consolation because in NUS, i'm under-performing. get my point? don't compare the worst with me cos it doesnt help.

On 11 april, i celebrated my birthday at costa sands chalet at sentosa. it wasnt perfectly executed, but i appreciated that my bf planned such a sweet surprise for me. that day, it rained heavily, so bbq was almost thwarted. That afternoon, i met up with my best friend at vivocity for lunch so that we could go sentosa tgt. however, muddle-headed me forgot to bring my specs and contact lens case/solution/towel for the overnight stay at the chalet, so she accompanied me home to take my stuff. thanks girl for the scarf, haha:) She waited with me for daryl to fetch us to sentosa, while at sentosa, she had to leave without even eating/eating the birthday cake, just cos her mum dont allow her to. i really appreciate that you came down, and waited for me without even complaining. hugs*

Caizhu and ben also came down to sentosa at around 10+pm even though it was far for them, and the next day caiz had to work. thanks girl for coming down, i appreciated it alot:) and i love the perfume!:) And thanls to everyone who wished me, much appreciated:) I still had to bring my work to do over there, even though it wasnt much work done, but i spent quality time with my bf, so im really happy. we went for the skytram, and ate lunch at the exobitant cafes there, seriously, if you want to charge high prices, make sure that the food is up to standard, or the portions are big. i have sth against serving small portions to people! Just cos Asians are smaller sized doesnt mean that they dont eat alot. cos for a fact, i eat alot! wahahaha. btw, i want to eat sakae sushi! i always never get a chance to eat it, cos the buffet timings are over by the time i get there, or else when i'm out, it will be the weekends alry:( Btw, i LOVE their salmon avocado/sashimi sushi/rice bowls:))

Anw, i just went off point! what i wanted to talk about was LOVE. yeah, kinda feel like love is so transient. you know the feeling, where there seems to be a period where alot of people fall in love, and also a period where people fall out of love? i think it is a fall-out-of-love-period now. i just see people like breaking up, and i feel ______. its like, why is it that easy for couples to break up so easily?i think "love" is something that is hard to come by, and so it should be cherished. oh wells. do people's feeling change so easily too, that one's feeling for their bf/gf can just fade with time? this society is becoming so scary. sometimes i just feel so afraid that one day, we might follow this trend.wow, what a lengthy post, shall end here and mug for finals. and dearest caizhu, i'm not a nerd ok! STUDY HARD!